I believe we were all born with a God-shaped hole in our hearts. We try to fill that hole with various things, to no avail. For me, it was sex, partying, and alcohol. I thrived off of attention from men. If I wasn't in a relationship, sexual or otherwise, I was looking for one. I was the stereotypical girl with "daddy issues."
My dad cheated on my mom during some of my most important formative years when a young girl needs her dad the most....my preteens. It devastated my mom, who had based her whole life value on her family: her husband and kids. That occurrence shaped the young woman I would become and led me to a life in my teens and twenties seeking male attention. Then, after having sex with my first serious boyfriend in high school, I saw sex as a barometer of love. If a man would have sex with me, I was worth something. Not surprisingly, this did not satisfy the hunger for love that I was trying to fulfill. My God-shaped hole stayed empty.
It wasn't until a year and a half ago, right after I turned 30, that I finally turned to God. Since then, my life has a new fulfillment that I never thought possible. Having God as my main man is better than any relationship or sexual encounter that I can think of. HE is all that I need.
Who knows, maybe someday God will send me a prince charming who has reverence for the Lord and walks beside me on my path with Jesus.....but for now, I am complete simply by loving Jesus and turning to my Heavenly Father with all of my "daddy issues," or any other problem I have. He is the love of my life!!
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